LoveNeverFails's Momaroo

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 19:37:34 GMT

Peace, it does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart.
Juli Alvarado

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Sat, 11 Jul 2009 05:01:00 GMT

PRAISE YAHWEH for people who care about other's enough to leave their homes for a 3 day weekend to help other people grow and process.
Being here with Eric Guy www.centerforvictory.com and the group is just an amazing experience. On 2 levels. I've been able to be less tense and nervous when it's my turn to talk. I've been able to remain present, and absorb more of the informational part, and also engage in the processing too. And Secondly, I've been able to just spend time, meals, and laughs with other moms who get me, we get one another. I can tell my story and instead of 'wow how do you do it,' or 'are you going to keep her?' they say yeah I know.. and share their story, OR they don't have to say anything! You can feel they just understand. Esp one lady here, Michelle. I've been with her at 4 trainings now, and shes so open and so smart shes an engineer, yet she never makes me feel less, or that she knows more ( although she absolutely does hehe) She remains present, knows just what to say, and also shares freely of her own story. I can completely be myself with her. I get from her what Dr Baer calls 'real love'. The kind that fills me up and allows me to pass it on to my children. Its rare and such a blessing. I normally struggle daily to give real love, unconditional love to my children and DH and mom and and and and . Yet I know I cannot give what I do not have. And I feel so blessed to 'get it' here. and this helps ( which is the main and end goal) to be able to accept that unconditional love and acceptance my Heavenly Father extends to me, I just cannot humanly accept it fully at a gut, state level- yet. So this is my process, and I'm SO blessed to be in it.
Off to bed.
kellie

Monday, July 06, 2009

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 00:53:38 GMT

okay so I sunburnt myself really bad my legs are so retarded.. huge red stripe in front of each calf lol
Found sit and spins for 2.00 at thrift shop today...
and 10.00 microwave,
and 15 dollar poof chair worth 240 online!! YAY for my girlies' sensory room!!!
Have invented several low GL and lowest cal I could make recpies this week, granola, and chocolate muffins, and apple pie... SO yummy! Planning for my trip, making sure I have foods to keep me on track for the 5 weeks we will be out and about. Of course this is nothing compared to ideas to keep 8 young children occupied... 2500 miles one way, 1000 miles north, 2500 home! phew!
Well I smell someone suspicious... 2 more in diapers. weird I have 9 children and only 2 left in diapers, and they all will be 4 and up by Sept. Weird....
Kellie

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 22:09:11 GMT

hillbillyhousewife.com great site!! Making homemade frostys again YUMM ok so not diet food but close as I can get it.. and making mine like the twisted toffee one at Wendy's with toffee bits and coffee. Ive been craving them! hehe I hate a bite of one last week, of CH's and yummo!

Monday, June 22, 2009

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 22:37:04 GMT

okay so today was fun stuff went to the park... came home with a boat hanging off the side of the van, poop smeared on dog, and a small pink girl. poop poop poop everywhere. CH is washing the dog right now and Im washing the girlie. fun stuff.
Z surgery went fabulous we got our regular post op care nurse, Amy which was nice, and Z came out of it with not a single fuss, and even went to the nurse on his way IN without fussing! It was amazing.
This is my blog still, yet I've chosen to stop posting any of my thoughts on parenting or anything deep thinking, and instead journal that elsewhere, as its for myself anyway, and although I'd hoped I could help others at least with a small new thought, I find instead that I blather and misspeak. So I figure I can vent and journal my thoughts on my computer, which helps me, and here, I can post my happenings!
well a small beautiful girl is asking her mama to come wash her and get her out of the sink. her and the small brown baby doll she is bathing with.
kellie

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Sun, 21 Jun 2009 17:04:29 GMT

well plans have changed again.. we will be taking the northern route to GA after all! Im glad cuz I know that direction better, less stress, as there are less variables. Rick decided going the southern route to GA was not as safe.. so we go the way we normally go! I was hoping to see the grand canyon but oh well! I'd rather not and have less overall stress, N is going to be a handful as she hates to ride. But we wil have an awesome trip with lots of family and friends!!
Love
Kellie

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 04:15:03 GMT

When I got my new puter I lost all my blogs!! If you are reading this and would like to send me a link to your blog, please feel free to! astagenesis @ aol . com
Had a LOOOONG hard day, those of you on FB knows how come, but man it was hard. Had speech with a really nice woman, but young and does not, admitedly, understand attachment sigh... poor N...
Kellie

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 04:27:23 GMT

I got my new books THANK YOU DAD!
I must get up at 4:30 am to take Z to surgery. fun stuff.
I am really loving my new book on clothing I know, shallow but sometimes its fun.. its called 'Before you put that on'. by Lloyd Boston. Tips for every day to dress well, but not expensive. I really like it. I wish there were more photos though.. or even drawings.
I managed to work out again today, been pretty faithful.
I was able to make coconut flour cookies, muffins, and biscuits today so yummy!!
I will be posting more thoughts soon as I have more books Im reading I am acutally getting through them, cover to cover. I am loving "Healing Parents'
I just got 'Bibical Parenting" by Crystal Lutton. I believe from www.aolff.com so far so good.. shes a 'pastor' which I have a doctrinal issue with, BUT won't let that detour me from reading it as I have so much to learn.
Just checking in.
Feeling really at peace about my life, our choices, our family, our blessings. Focusing on the positive. kellie

Monday, June 15, 2009

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 21:53:42 GMT

Okay so I made these flax oat blueberry muffins.. yum!! a bit sweet and gooey, but I can keep working with them. The carb content is very low/ glycemic!

I've also been working out every day for about 20-40 min. I never thought I'd do it faithfully but I am yay!

N is having a great day. Most days are good for her by my standards, but today shes exceptionally calm. It was funny about a week ago she was really laid back and laying on me asking me to hold her and just sucking her thumb and laying her head on me.. I was like man shes either sick or has crossed into the land of the mentally healthy lol.. anyway, shes not sick and she has perked up some, her busy self, but much calmer. today I heard her getting really mad at something I was out of sight in my kitchen and I said N use your necklace ( which is our guide words to not bite herself but use her necklace obviously) and one of the other children said, 'mommy she is!" YAY! I didnt have to tell her or redirect her! She is still obsessed with the kittens, but not nearly as bad, when told to leave them she no longer bites or pulls her hair. Today I even got a shower ALONE ( usually she is with me) and nothing bad happened! lol whoo hoo!

IN regard to how the rest of the children fare while I tend so strongly to N.... The things I do with her require time yes, but while I do that with her I am usually tending to the others too. So if I'm rocking N usually another of the triplets will climb up, or if she gets so full of herself and is spinning out of control I'll put her in the front pack so that I can still have my free hands

Monday, June 15, 2009

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 18:36:43 GMT

Im so excited!!!
I have been working on eating right for about 4 months. I have always been interested in health and work hard feeding my kids right, but for my personal self I've been on a quest for about 4 months! This means eating only low glycemic foods and seems I can eat no, or very little wheat. So anyway Im excited because I found a recipe for flax seed bread, I've made flax muffins in the past that are lovely! but this is actual bread that I'm making into sandwhiches today! its so cool!! lol heres the link. http://bearmedicineherbals.com/?p=394

I'm almost down to my target goal weight I cant believe it I've tried so hard to loose weight for years, like since A was born over 8 years ago... never ever lost a bit no matter what and in the last 4 months I've lost 27 lbs. I am very excited and happy with my progress.

okay off to deal.. having a really hard emotional day... feeling misunderstood and rejected is hard, adding to that the heavy emotional strain of 9 active children and educating them... ok stop whining lol sorry I have Dr offices calling me telling me my deductible is not yet met ( YES MAAM IT SURE IS!) and tax man calling, boys trying to escape from school, a hospital stay to prepare for and im like GIVE ME A BREAK ALREADY

I forgot to mention another book I'm reading
The Healing Parent.

I placed an order yesterday for 'faithtales' and I CANT wait to get them I really have high hopes in them for my children and myself to have a higher level of faith and Trust in Him. I know it will help in my handling of the above mentioned overwhelming items in my life, just in the last few hours! ya know I think okay well 'that thing' is over, I move on, and something else comes up thats very similar, different people, same scenario.. I am assuming there is something Yahweh is trying to teach me!! I keep praying I'll learn it, whatever 'it' is! hehe
This writing really helps me let go and feel better emotionally... Not as good as talking to someone who then accepts me and all my uglies and flaws, but its a start!! My DH is trying to be my 'uglies' catcher lol
kellie